Sunday 18 January 2015

The Change is YOU

My last write up from 2014. 


I had been wanting to write a blog for long, like really long but somehow it kept on pending and never took a form. So many things happened all around me that whenever I sat to write I found lack of time and they were left incomplete in bits of papers and unfinished word documents. Before the last digit of the year changes and we bid farewell to 2014, let me quickly sum up the major headlines of this wonderful year that's soon going  to become a past. As if god showered all his blessings upon me, I had an eventful Twenty Fourteen. I was placed in the first company that came to college, I made some beautiful friends, was saved from a back in a subject in which almost half the class was caught up for a while, I went out on my most memorable trip of all with an amazing set of people. Above everything Bunny, my nephew, now 5 months old, came into our lives. Also my career in photography took a leap forward. Work came to me, a lot of work indeed that I had to say no to, due to time trouble. Most importantly I started receiving compliments for my photographs from all sorts of people, clients, friends, strangers. And every time it happened I would jump like an excited little girl who receives a Barbie in her Birthday Present.

Two days left for the year to end and I want to make a little confession. I don’t have regrets about 2014 and I don’t have resolutions for 2015. All I feel is pretty. A pimple or rather two on my right cheek, chipped lips, split ends in hair, flab here and there and yet you read it correct, I feel pretty. Pretty is not flawless skin, pretty is not perfect figure, maybe it is for you but for me it's a feeling. I feel beautiful down in my heart. I feel proud of me somehow. For the road I chose, for the downfalls I climbed, for the people I met and the ones I left, for the family and friends I am in love with, for everything ME and for everything not me. I don’t know if this is what people call being self obsessed but I find no wrong in embracing oneself. If there is one thing I learnt this 2014 then it is to love thy self. When you do so, the world automatically is attracted to you. You are flooded in with positivity, you tend to see the good everywhere and the same is seen in you. It's the vibe you emit then, it's magical.

Many of my previous posts had talked about my transition from a girl suffering from mood swings and negativity to a  much balanced and happy person. I used to compare my life to others. I was never pleased with what I had in my plate and for every success  they had the answer remained because they were served with the silver spoon and I wasn’t. For everything I did, my worry was not how the result will affect me, but the major concern remained what are they going to think. I wouldn’t admit but secret jealously had become my second nature. I used to live depressed and cry in front of mirror; I would curse me for being me.

 I am rewinding my life for all those who are still struggling with a similar if not the same state of affairs. Yesterday I was talking to a friend and he didn’t seem happy for hundreds of reasons. He wasn’t how a person should be at 20. Doubts, fear and lack of love seemed to have blanketed him. I couldn’t show but I was upset and unfortunately irritated at why is he wasting the potential he has, why is he so vague in life.  And at that moment it hit me. I changed my outlook towards life and life changed for me. But not everyone is aware of this simple solution to happiness. They are still cribbing at circumstances. That's when I decided to write this post. I came across this beautiful note I would like to share with you all.

"I want you to look at yourself like you look at flowers and sunsets and animals and all the most beautiful, natural things in the world. You look at them without judgment or criticism and just appreciate them for what they are instead of wishing they were different. You are natural and you are meant to look as you do and meant to be as you are. You are a magnificent, complex piece of art like all the other wonders of nature. Start looking at every part of yourself with wonder and love"

They talk about resolutions at new years, and you come up with a long list of impossible events which you begin with and eventually drop off. How about a simple resolution of changing the way you see yourself and your life. Believe me everything else will fit in exactly the way you ever wanted them to.  


Pakhi